Does it mean less if I say it or if I don't? I'm burning up sleep time just to sit here, so I guess it has to.
I feel worthless. I feel stupid and insignificant and worthless and pathetic and needy and I need to get over that. It's stupid how these little fuckups accumulate in my mind and become not obstacles that I need to care of, but actual reflections on who I am, and come to affect everything else that I need to do until every new fuckup feels like another whittling off the splinter that is me.
I feel unnecessary. Which, really, relates to the first thing: worthless people can't determine whether they're any good. I don't know anybody worthwhile who loves me. It's hard, therefore, to consider this worthwhile.
I feel the urgent need to get drunk.
That, at least, is a simple question with a simple answer.
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I feel worthless. I feel stupid and insignificant and worthless and pathetic and needy and I need to get over that. It's stupid how these little fuckups accumulate in my mind and become not obstacles that I need to care of, but actual reflections on who I am, and come to affect everything else that I need to do until every new fuckup feels like another whittling off the splinter that is me.
I feel unnecessary. Which, really, relates to the first thing: worthless people can't determine whether they're any good. I don't know anybody worthwhile who loves me. It's hard, therefore, to consider this worthwhile.
I feel the urgent need to get drunk.
That, at least, is a simple question with a simple answer.