It'll all work out! This is really a K-provoked day! (ProvoKed???)
Rationally, if I'm detached, I should find it easier than this. I'm not detached at all. I'm scared and I'm emotional as hell in spurts, it just has a tendency to shut down on me.
I don't know why I'm taking the photo with me. (Pictured: a man, early twenties, Asian with an awkward shock of dark hair, half-grinning as a little girl in a red dress swings up on his arm. She has a bowlcut, the chubbiness of childhood, and his thin eyes. It's an ugly combination. In his other hand, the flat cardboard envelope -- a diploma, you'd guess, by the black robe that stretches over his shabby trouser knees.) I should, I think, want to remember this conversation --
w: Hey, hey! You still have Dad's address? m: Why? w: I found my photo of him! I'm thinking about sending it to him, make him remember that I exist and feel bad about it. Think it'll work? m: [ shrug ] He's not going to care.
This probably says a lot about me more than him, really.
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Rationally, if I'm detached, I should find it easier than this. I'm not detached at all. I'm scared and I'm emotional as hell in spurts, it just has a tendency to shut down on me.
I don't know why I'm taking the photo with me. (Pictured: a man, early twenties, Asian with an awkward shock of dark hair, half-grinning as a little girl in a red dress swings up on his arm. She has a bowlcut, the chubbiness of childhood, and his thin eyes. It's an ugly combination. In his other hand, the flat cardboard envelope -- a diploma, you'd guess, by the black robe that stretches over his shabby trouser knees.) I should, I think, want to remember this conversation --
w: Hey, hey! You still have Dad's address?
m: Why?
w: I found my photo of him! I'm thinking about sending it to him, make him remember that I exist and feel bad about it. Think it'll work?
m: [ shrug ] He's not going to care.
This probably says a lot about me more than him, really.